Dragged along

 

my heart - slowly, carefully healing
cracked
torn to pieces again

what reality heals
what has always been, but hidden
congealed tears in my lungs

I drown, like you drown in the poison you chose
red
like blood

so much I would like to be your raft - your buoy
but you don't swim - you sink like you are too heavy
and only cry out

I submerge beneath the water surface water
mourn what is and what may come
let go they say
I have to let go and let you go
 
damn it - swim