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let me not deliver just dreams to the innocent ones for I am tired imagine the unsaid truths with words; their tendrils woven into the fabric of time express what is hidden inside of you once, I was king and queen my voice echoed inside your minds speak of me sweet poetry

I stand frozen, will my heart to stop it's frantic beating but it doesn't in my dreams I've met you a thousand times and every single time I felt lost and found I know you, yet I don't we are of the same blood face to face we mirror one another we are different, yet we are one

across the pond once lavish green - now grey ancient magic

she fluidly makes her way into the crowd solitary movement where she steps they part like water leaving a vacant space for her to embrace she is, but isn't there like a silent echo of a sound

hope causes a vision of a future that may or never be fear does exactly the same hate & love exist only in the here & now we decide which vision we choose and we decide which feeling we follow I hope for love and I love but I fear but above all - I refuse to hate

the night is already old its bones brittle and its breath ragged we both lie awake, cold our bodies tangled together but our hearts far apart how did we come to this when did we miss the signs that indicated a goodbye I love you and you love me there's just no we anymore

December meeting black birds perch above white snow bare branches bend crows gathering in a tree some lively conversations

you were a collector, a creator you gathered twigs and chestnuts, stones covered in moss you sat at your desk, quietly watching all the little things piecing them together in your mind I would have loved to look inside your beautiful head unique like these bookends you made

up in the heavens chaotic constellations but stars know their place a certain symmetry lost still planets circle their sun

she hopes that by not eating her mind can silence the voices screaming at her internally to fade to become less the solution

we are mere shadows within loneliness entwined dancing in the dark my heart shuns the light how I yearn for but still flee from the sun I warned you your love would go to waste but in your haste you only saw an impossible possibility I am broken don't become broken like me

Icelandic moods: While this way

While this way - ÁrstΓ­Γ°ir 🎢 I recently went to a concert with a friend of mine and was introduced to the music of ÁrstΓ­Γ°ir, an Icelandic band. I instantly bought their CD Nivalis. Their music is a bit melancholic, just the way I like it, and their voices are beautiful together. The song I like the most from that CD is the first one on it: While this way. The lyrics for me remind me of a sad mood everyone experiences once in a while. The feeling that everything is not as it should be and the powerlessness to change it. Lyrics: Oh I am the way I am I give and borrow Always am the way I am While sitting next to you I’ll find a way, I’ll find a way I always manage I’ll find a way, I’ll find a way Get pulled in back to you Pulled in back to you I’m falling off the edge of the world You’re the one who’s checking out And runs for cover Understand the way that I feel This ain’t the way things should be now Or for years to follow Now you understand the way I

I wanted to ask whether you liked watching clouds drift by. But I stood silent, watching you. I wanted to touch you, to feel if you were really real. But I stood still, watching you. I wanted to inhale your scent, the essence of you. But I stood breathless, watching you. I stood watching you from a distance. I could not go near, for I feared the truth and I still fear. I was never good at saying goodbye. You are not dead. With my eyes closed, I am watching you, still.

on these dark waters we are but passing ships we meet we greet we say goodbye we are strangers yet kindred souls we love how the wind overtakes us how it makes us rush into the unknown I follow the North Star destination anywhere but here you follow the sun anywhere but there

early morning mist walking through deserted streets winter's breath wakes me

I walk within worlds between worlds searching I am divergent truth can be hidden within falsehood evil can be concealed as good how humanity fails and how reality is nothing more than a fantasy created by our minds but what of our hearts

woke up in sweat soaked sheets nightmares ruled again I saw you standing there ghostly pale felt your lingering touch which was never even real

though here - walking beside you I fear I will never be able to cross this distance between us without you

read to me a while from the pages of my book weave in some dragons and a knight in shining armor rewrite for me my ending into a happily ever after

it gives and it takes a river does not just run life and death are one

we could stay here huddled together like blind birds day and night would be the same an absence of darkness and light we'd manage just fine

look to our loved ones when it's time to let them go don't fear the parting memories will be preserved photographs taken by hearts

in the dead of winter I feel like the small flickering of candles afraid of the cold breeze tend to my flames keep me safe and warm

Writing and reading make me feel so much more, than living in the real world could ever do. O, if only I could live in stories. I'd be truly alive, for sure.

how our words are mistaken for meaning     we walk between the lines and empty dots mark unfinished sentences                we are no poets performing read what's not been written often untold stories are the most pure of them all

water runs slowly a playground for dragonflies creek filled with wet stones

met haar ogen gesloten kon niemand anders haar zien ze was er niet niet echt ingebeelde veiligheid         with her eyes closed no one else could see her she wasn't there not really imaginary safety                     

she's all black holes & white matter such beautiful chaos gravity calls she's worth the risk to fall for

I might be tempted to kiss you.

let us meet among the stars dance barefoot entranced you my sun are my muse center of my universe

kat staart naar buiten een regenachtige dag geen muisjes vandaag the cat stares outside it's a grey and rainy day no mice for breakfast

numb but trembling calm but terribly scared long ago, tomorrow was but a dream a day at a time love was love forever our past accumulated but our future may never be mine I can't fathom it but yet I can for I must I hope there is hope yet love still lingers

cracks in the concrete grasshoppers race butterflies          the old road - sidetracked I retrace my steps          everything just keeps moving

watch me dance while I slip the night into the folds of our sin stars and bare skin move like planets around a central point where we converge how we breathe dreams and taste like new made memories ~ sweet

snuggle against me the world can wait, little one come, dream peacefully tomorrow you'll venture out but I'll keep you safe tonight

Quotation from John Green

“As he read, I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once.” ― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

hello moonlight light of night and dark desire I know the stars by name I've counted them drawn my own constellations the flaws, the faults there are no angels up in the heavens no halo's or wings just infinite dying suns life is simply the stage before oblivion

He smiles at her, revealing perfect, pearly teeth. He has a gorgeous mouth, set in a gorgeous face. Her train of thought escapes. What he could do to her with those well curved lips. Nip at her bottom lip with his teeth. She bites her own lip and her face flushes.

how unfathomably unfair: to start to love, only to lose it far too soon  he smiled a sad smile life isn't meant to be fair, it is meant to be lived and to live it, means to have to die even if too young though our love was briefly felt it was fierce we were brief, but fierce