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Destined to darkness

within this cold night, between these barren walls and dying trees, evil voices from a distant past haunt my soul
there is little time left
for you are only embers now; the pale remnants of a fire that once was our blazing power

with hollow eyes you watch my movements
my lips part but no sound escapes from my mouth
I turn around, ashamed
how could I be so foolish to think myself worthy of you when I was destined to fail such a frail flower, beautiful, fragrant, fragile... now withering
still holding on to life you whisper: it awaits us all my love,
I don't fear it,
hold me now, then let me go

how could I, you should know I would rather die here instead of you
to bleed into the barren ground and watch you bloom once more with vibrant life from my limbs
but I obey
take your pale, powerless body into my arms to cradle you, protect you
for my demons lurk in the growing darkness
once you are gone - my light, my love, my life
- I will be lost to them

I will fight fiercely for you
until I loose and must let go
of all that was you
the last goodness in me


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The last goodbye - Billy Boyd 🎢

This is the song that concludes the trilogy of The Hobbit, filmed by Peter Jackson. To me it is even more than that. It is the perfect goodbye to both The Lord of the Rings as well as The Hobbit. What a magnificent journey the actors, producers and all others on the set have taken in participating in filming the mighty fantasy world created by Tolkien. It truly must have been a bit sad having to say goodbye to their characters, the world they were creating and to each-other. This was an epic undertaking and one I can imagine they will never forget.


I saw the light fade from the sky
On the wind I hear a sigh
As the snowflakes cover my fallen brothers
I will say this last goodbye

Night is now falling
So end this day
The road is now calling
And I must away
Over hill and under tree
Through lands where never light has shone
By silver streams that run down to the sea

Under cloud, beneath the stars
Over snow one winter's morn
I turn at last on paths that lea…